More paintings and info at: https://sites.google.com/view/cabinetofvanities
Acrylic on Watercolor Paper, 2004, 22×30
Great whale surfaces/from ocean of conversation/eyes the audience

More paintings and info at: https://sites.google.com/view/cabinetofvanities
Acrylic on Watercolor Paper, 2004, 22×30
Great whale surfaces/from ocean of conversation/eyes the audience


Humans must grow up in a social environment – a baby alone is soon dead. For the rest of our lives we live in a hierarchy ruled by parents, bullies, leaders or amorphous entities like society or government. Naturally, like fish who take water for granted, we assume the universe must be structured the same way .
The easiest concept is animism, where everything has a spirit and connects with a greater spirit. This seems to have been practiced for all ahistoric people for a very long time and still seems sensible to those who like to imagine a vast spiritualism to the universe. Sometimes it is refined into religions like Taoism .
Historic agrarian cultures with writing and formal government organization imagined a kind of supernatural governing elite. The most fun of those were the Greek gods, awesome and stupid at the same time. The worst was the Old testament God of the desert. But all those superheroes needed to be appeased and prayed to .
The question has always been who speaks to or for the spirit or god. Shamans and priests and prophets claim exclusive rights. Individuals claim intimate direct communication. Skeptics explain bits of cheese or festering neurons .
I admit to being somewhat of a skeptic, while at the same time feeling the natural (as if I were a fish) belief that there must be more to existence than we are aware of .

Many times I have emerged from an art museum seeing the world totally differently than when I entered. We all know a simple mood change can reset our outlook. And mental illness produces severe distortions such as paranoids believing the world is out to get them when everyone is in fact ignoring them entirely. Or, of course, love.
Since printing we’ve had to deal with at least two realities – that of the ‘larger’ world and our own local one. News lately has focused on the sensational – crime and disaster. Cable news began to focus on singular scenarios. And now we can spend our lives immersed in worlds only manifest within computer screens .
Most notably, the Republicans claim that we live in a dystopian country. Cities are burning, if you notice before you are shot or cannibalized. Foreign hordes sweep up from the border like Mongol hordes of old, looting and burning all in their path. Evil bureaucrats spread all their time assuring that the good people will be cheated of their rightful wealth and respect .
And then we open the door and in our local reality (unless we are mentally ill) the sun shines, people smile, and we enjoy the greatest security and standard of living in history .
The world will always have problems. Some of each our lives involves tragedy and misery. But there are different worlds about us if we simply reset our outlook once in a while .

Most Roman emperors did not die out of office. An exception was Diocletian, who retired after 30 years because of ill health, turning affairs over to a carefully selected, managed, and trained group of successors who promptly failed miserably. Diocletian himself spent his last 10 years or so on a villa happily raising vegetables. His other claim to fame is an attempt to restore the old virtues of the empire, primarily by bringing back wholesome old time-tested religion and getting rid of nasty upstart Christianity. That bloody, reactionary but well intentioned effort gained his evaluation infamy in the centuries to come .
The question, of course, is would the empire have been better served had he remained in office and left vegetables to the peasants. I would answer no. Lots of other problems were combining against the Romans by that time, even though the many reforms of Diocletian did stave off the inevitable for almost two centuries. Another 10 years in office, even if effective, would hardly have changed the course of history dramatically .
The reason this is relevant is that modern aging leaders in business truly believe that the world would fall apart without them and that their imagined godlike power will continue after they are gone. Stocks have a saying: “past performance is no guarantee of future results.” Which should be applied to ancient politicians and business magnates. Perhaps we’d all be happier and better off if they retired and had fun growing cabbages .

A current bugaboo is worry about “ultra processed” foods. On examination, this label turns out to mean to have about as much meaning as anything with “turbo” in the description. “Ultra” used to be defined pretty synonymously with “extreme” or even a little more extreme than regular old extreme. But this connotation has apparently eroded just as much as the other older term, simply slapped on headlines and attention seeking studies to grab interest by shouting about new worries .
” Ultra processed food” is a perfect case in point. On a normal dial indicating, for example, speed, the indicator would range from stop through slow, moderate, fast, to insanely fast or ultra. But the equivalent food dial would label everything under 10 or 15 mph as okay and anything above as “horribly fast.” A fairly useless guide .
So now “ultra” is being slapped on everything bad in the same way “new, improved” used to be attached to anything good. I’m aware that word meanings and especially connotations mutate frequently, so there is little to really get annoyed at. It’s the ridiculously set binary division that is truly crazy .
I will continue to use my own food dial which runs approximately from raw, prepared, lightly processed, heavily processed and – yes – ultra processed. And not to be too worried about occasionally enjoying the “worst” which are – after all _ sometimes very delicious and many of which whole populations have been eating for decades .

“Idle hands are the devil’s playground” has long been a mantra in this country. Republican conservatives truly believe that it is better to make everyone dig holes and fill them up again than to “do nothing”. Otherwise those folks will just lounge around watching TV, making love, and drinking beer. Perhaps our fundamental religious elements should be reminded that such was presumably exactly the case in the garden of Eden before the “Fall.”
Work can be defined in two ways. One is as anything that a person does not want to do. The other is anything for which someone is paid. Often, but not always, those are congruent. The happiest people are those who find _ like me (and coding) or many sports stars – that they truly enjoy what they make money at. Even the wealthy professionals who brag about their long toil spend hours playing golf, eating lavish meals, or sailing yachts as they conduct “useful” business .
The biggest problems are in working out what is truly socially useful and how to pay for it, and what to do for sporadic or short-term or long ago labor. An influencer who may have had six months popularity, – rideshare driver or – again – aging athletes. And is an “influencer” popularizing multi-thousand dollar handbags really doing more productive socially useful work than a daycare worker?
In other words there are a lot of gaps in what seems to be an obvious and simple truth. In our extremely complex world, slogans of any type tend to obscure more than they instruct .

It is fashionable to hate government at all levels. I may be one of the last overt fans of the “deep state” so detested by just about everyone. These latter-day Marxists and Rousseauians are sure that if the state would just go away, the natural goodness (or Darwinian selection) of humanity would prevail to set up a far more perfect world. Where men are men and nobody tells anybody else what to do. And notably, where the speaker (whoever or whatever he or she may be) is on top .
Petty regulations are very annoying. But one person’s “petty regulation” – like no playing loud music in the backyard at 3:00 a.m._ is another person’s “necessary civil common sense.” Typically the real problem is when rules useful in a crowded urban setting are applied to open rural areas .
There are also many kinds of overlords. With no consensual government, monopolistic corporations like 1890 steel mills and coal mines dictate life in company towns and company stores. The biggest organization is always the de facto government. Mobs led by demagogues take over social mediation – often based on revealed (to the demagogue) religion. And so on – to true dystopia .
Me – I like a rule-based stable bureaucracy. It provides employment for the less aggressively greedy and for all its minor irritations smooths most life for everyone. I don’t want it filled with acolytes of the last party to win elections. I myself have strong doubts about Rousseau or Marx.
But I guess it’s a clever meme phrase, in an age that grasps clever memes as if they represented wisdom .

Even prisoners in a cell have cockroaches, rats and an occasional literary canary as local wildlife. Even city dwellers are familiar, in addition, with pigeons, raccoons, and the occasional falcon or fox or coyote. Here in the suburbs we even have larger fauna such as deer. But my favorite lately has been our little population of chipmunks .
In general they are cute, timid, do little harm, and should they accidentally get into a house only try to get out again as quickly as possible. They dash from place to place avoiding predators and pop into almost invisible holes in the lawn. They eat with paws carefully, like good children or – yes – proverbial monks .
There is currently a bad vibe that they may be one of the vectors for the ticks that cause Lyme disease. But never directly. They seem to cause no real damage. Unlike, for example, mice, their populations do not explode. Did I mention they are cute? It’s hard not to smile when you see them. Finally, it’s nice to believe they remain truly wild .
Of course there is lots of other stuff even now in this land of parking lots, pavement, pools, and sterilized lawns. Many animals and birds, some thriving, some barely hanging on. All of it interesting .
But a chipmunk can be a circus in itself .

Herbert Hoover was a fine and daring engineer. He turned his organizational skills to effective relief efforts after World War I. He was a smart, organized, compassionate man. He is remembered with disdain bordering on revulsion .
Most economic historians remain uncertain about the exact reasons for the market crash of 1929 and the great worldwide depression that followed. Most political historians still argue about what would have been the most effective political response .
No matter. Blame President Hoover, after all it occurred on his watch.
I fear that whoever the next president may be, he or she will face much the same circumstance. Shortly – possibly already – “climate change” will grow into “climate crisis” and shortly afterward “climate catastrophe”. Food supplies and economic networks will be lost or severely affected. Social systems and international relations will become bitterly chaotic. Planning may turn into a hopeless nightmare .
I doubt if it is existential to the human race, although mass depopulation seems likely, unless the crumbling leads to full nuclear war. I do believe it is existential to “civilization as we know it.” Right now will be nostalgically remembered as the “roaring twenties” once were .
And no matter the party or avowed policies, or heroic attempts to overcome the tragedies, it will all be labeled as a fault of President Whoever.

From a quantum physics standpoint everything we sense does not exist. A leaf on a tree is not “really” green, or shiny, or soft with rough edges. Songs from birds or the rush of wind are sensations manufactured for us by an imaginative brain using very partial evidence. So it is no surprise that quantum now demonstrates time does not exist .
The only relevant thing about that – like similar arguments about an omniscient omnipotent God – is that you and I have no free will. Everything we will do is exactly like our past, already cast in stone. Unfortunately, since we do make choices all the time – or die – this is a pretty corrosive attitude .
The plain fact is that our consciousness inhabits only a tiny fraction of whatever “everything” may be. Much of what we know is “true” – like the manifestation of a leaf to our senses – is in “higher reality” not there – just an odd assemblage of molecules and wavicles that themselves are not what they seem .
However, and in “truly real” contradiction, I can choose to eat this green leaf of lettuce. Once I have done so, that choice is frozen. Until then -well so what ?
Mathematics is just as much – or more _ of an imaginary illusion as the leaf. Those who seek to find the “true meaning” of it all are doomed to failure. We are, in fact, “all that we can be,” free will included, and no more than that .