Late Bloomers

Monday

  • Late blooming wildflowers like this thistle are now in full stride.  Their strategy is to avoid the mad dash of the early spring and summer when everything else competes for resources like mad; bide their time to bloom when insects and sunlight are guaranteed to be plentiful, the temperature is warm, and the ferocious pace of the earlier plants  has eased up or ended.  The downsides, of course, are that rain can be infrequent, solar energy each day diminishes, and the growing season becomes very limited.
  • I also love cultivated species which add color where there would normally be little.  Their particular strategy is to completely throw in their lot with humans.  If the people disappear, so do they.  And, yes, I know that is anthropomorphic drivel, but isn’t it fun?  Doesn’t that give us a better perspective?  Fairy tales exist to help shape our world view.

Tuesday

  • Admittedly, this time of August has few spectacular wildflowers or weeds.  Nothing equivalent to a Lady’s Slipper or Crabapple smothered in pink will be in view.  This sea lavender, with many lovely but extremely tiny flowers, is a good example.  As if more mature plants tend to have more somber displays.
  • At any age I thought I had it all figured out.  Ongoing circumstances always forced changes in attitude.  Now, like other older folks, I often claim to be mature, experienced and wise.  When I break out of such reveries, the only appropriate response is uncontrollable laughter.
Wednesday
  • Domestic and cultivated flowers now take up the slack in unusual outside colors.  Gardens are in full bloom with annuals and perennials and exotics, such as this hibiscus which somehow survived the harsh winter and is doing marvelously.
  • I do tend to concentrate on the wilder side of harbor sights, but the fact is Huntington is cultivated and mostly tame suburbs.  It’s silly to pretend that these man-made and beautiful landscapes are not just as much a part of the world as any roadside weed or springtime woodland wildflower.

Thursday

  • Queen Anne’s Lace has been opening its wide white heads for a while now.  Soon each will curl into a basket and brown up as it dies.  It’s one of the reliable signs that summer is well past midpoint and autumnal equinox is not far away.
  • As I have grown older, particularly since I turned sixty, it seems I have more time in each day to enjoy the outdoors.  Yet unfortunately my memories are less capacious than they once were, and no matter how much I pack in on each walk it seems to dribble away far faster then, for example, certain recollections of long ago and far away.

Friday
  • One of the few thistles along the harbor this year.  It’s amazing how the same apparently barren spot of cracked roadside can support an entirely different set of plants from one year to another, probably depending on rainfall, temperature, and the randomized dropping of birds and breeze.
  • Almost everything I find now is non-native, even “invasive”.  We feel sorry for the crowded-out original and less-hardy original inhabitants.  Of course, it is necessary to remember that this works both ways _ in Europe American ragweed is a tremendous problem _ we probably made out better on this particular exchange.

Saturday
  • Not sure what these are springing up in the narrow sands at a tiny beach at head of harbor.  Certainly showier than a lot of the other species which tend to be more tucked away than showy.
  • I used to know all the names, or rush to references if I did not.  But as Gertrude Stein said, what’s in a name after all?  Someone who first classified it christened it in some Latin nouns and adjectives, which almost nobody uses anyway.  And the “common folk name” changes from locale to locale.  Better to just accept it as the miracle all such things are.

Sunday
  • Another relatively tiny wonder, also now unknown to me.  Probably in the compositae or astor family.  Beautiful enough for its own needs of propagation, of course, or it would not be here.  This desolate area has nothing planted purposely except a few straggling pines and skimpy beach roses added by the town when they rebuilt the park next door.
  • The bees are now extremely busy in our gardens, crawling around phlox and dahlias.  I’m always amazed at the sheer number of different insects _ giant bumblebees, tiny honeybees, earwigs, and of course the unseen cicadas constantly singing from the trees above.  I often have trouble realizing how much independent life our little area supports, and it is somehow a comfort given the dire stories we are fed each evening.

Hot Fun

Monday

  • A long spell with temperatures near ninety every day, some with breezes some calm, scorching sun.  Kids and many adults on vacation.  Water has heated up nicely: even on Monday beaches are crowded, various craft cram the waterways, and children play at catching crabs and chasing minnows with nets.  Early in the day, on a low tide, there is still some solitude to be found.
  • Not long ago, I loved lonely beaches.  I could not sit still and would walk miles along the sand as the rest of the family sat and absorbed sun.  Now I’ve slowed down a lot, and enjoy places with lots of activity, where I also sit and, I suppose, add something to the ambience.  Even on a brutal day, beaches this time of year are a far nicer place to hang out than the air conditioned prisons our TV doctors are always stridently telling elders to hide in.   

Tuesday

  • Folks heading for their power boat permanently moored in deeper water.  Small boats barely afloat serve to ferry them out and back, the mooring is swapped for the duration.  Even in these civilized areas, theft of such small craft is not unknown.  An even more difficult problem is some being left to decay and rot along the shore when owners move or die or become disinterested.  On occasion the town clears out the whole roadside bank.
  • I never quite understood the buoys themselves, but they are lifted in early fall and distributed anew each spring.  That must be done by professionals _ the spacing must be such that winds and tides will not cause collisions _ and each one requires payment to the town and is jealously guarded by its owner.  In any case, this is the “poor man’s solution,” the rich far prefer marinas with docks, security, gas, food, and everything else including help if it’s needed.

Wednesday

  • Nowhere on Long Island is pristine _ perhaps not even primeval before the first Europeans arrived.  Yet walking along dirt roads through the woodlands and coming upon a meadow of grasses and milkweed like some reminder of centuries ago can allow some contemplation of man and nature.  More so, of course, when there are few other people around.
  • We live on one of the most crowded and developed areas of the planet, so even the parklands are frequently filled.  Like many antisocial people, I have the gift or curse of being easily alone in a crowd, sensing others more as if they were flocks of geese (or passenger pigeons?)  One almost sure way to have maximum room is to go against the grain _ wet cool weather along the beach, or as today inland in humid heat that sends everyone else to the shore.

Thursday

  • When Americans mostly lived along the Eastern Seaboard, and dreamed of being the next Rome (but exceptional!) Long Island Sound was dubbed “The American Mediterranean.”  On a hot August day with sun sparkling on wind whipped waves as sailboats dart about, it almost seems true.  Of course that effete European lake never experiences any winters like this body of water.
  • We have plentiful public beaches and open areas, grace of bygone wealth and ancestral pride.  Some claim my boomer generation will bequeath nothing but ashes, but I think our record of environmental cleanup, social responsibility, heritage preservation, scientific research, economic growth, and knitting the world with commerce, culture, and electronic communication compares favorably with any others.  This bay, for instance, is cleaner and more alive than it was when we came into adulthood.

Friday

  • The James Joseph goes out several times a day from the town dock, through the inlet and sets up just offshore on the Sound.  Although it can be chartered, it’s mostly just families going out occasionally to fish for something a decent size.  They must be successful, for the boat is usually followed by a huge flock of seagulls feasting on the thrown overboard remains of the cleaned fish.
  • I find it hopeful that there are such activities remaining.  Fish populations must be relatively ok for this to pay well enough.  And I do agree that most true sportsmen tend to be conservationists.  More than that, this helps to protect the local environment more than donations to some remote wilderness, which is also necessary, but infrequently encountered by most of us.

Saturday

  • This scene from Northport looks like an impressionist painting of the Paris Tuilleries.  People sitting, talking, eating, walking dogs, and mostly watching other people accented by brilliant harbor background.  In times of incessant  electronic immersion, it’s comforting that ancient human patterns and behaviors can sometimes prevail.  Probably people have gathered thus in beautiful places forever.
  • I was amazed to see a couple playing serious chess on an inlaid concrete table.  Once I would have thought doing any more than taking in the spectacle and moving on was a severe waste of my time.  Now, slower and possibly wiser, I am just one of the crowd, letting a golden afternoon slowly drift from future
    to past without any of my help at all.

Sunday

  • Small children need active play, no matter what time of year.  Even in high heat of summer, park playgrounds like this one at Hecksher are wonderful spots.  Sometimes in the overwhelming affluence of this culture, parents try to recreate everything in their backyard.  That can be a losing proposition, since various parks offer variety of scenery, and ranges of equipment to keep kids from being quickly bored.  Plus toddlers grow so fast that often back-yard construction is out of their age group within months.
  • For a while, it seemed playgrounds were being dumbed down to such rigid safety standards that all that was allowed was sliding down a short plastic tunnel.  Happily, I see, swings and merry-go-rounds and jungle gyms are back in fashion.  Total safety is always an illusion, since any of us can severely hurt ourselves stepping off a curb or getting into a bathtub. 

Ripe

Sunday

  • Catalpa seed pods look like giant string beans.  Most are higher in the tree.  The sheer overabundance of everything has always amazed people, leading some like Malthus to gloomy thoughts and predictions, and eventually providing Darwin with the underpinnings to his theory.
  • I usually just walk by without noticing.  Green on green takes a little effort to make out until they darken later in the year.  Yet this tree is producing the next generation as vigorously as any hickory (whose nuts are becoming large enough to dent the hoods of cars carelessly parked under it.)

Saturday

  • Hard to even get close enough to photograph the small berries of poison ivy.   That’s no real trouble, since it would be extremely nasty to eat them.  Perhaps this was the original tree of knowledge of good and evil, and it was rewarded by making its leaves and fruits toxic to people.   Animals do not, apparently, share the same allergic reaction.
  • As far as I know, there has never been an attempt to domesticate or even use poison ivy for food or medicine.  It’s one plant that by luck or careful coevolution goes its merry way everywhere without folks doing much more than swearing as the itch later develops.

Friday

  • Renaissance Christian concepts of the tree of knowledge of good and evil depicted an apple, but even a cursory scan of internet information shows how complex and universal those concepts were in many times, places, and religions.  The standard American understanding came from bible illustrations largely based on European painters.  The common apple is very much a creation of humans, aptly illustrating knowledge and, if one is into good and evil, even the dangers of meddling in genetic s.  Lately even more evils of pesticides and fungicides to create unmarked fruit, or the breeding of ever more prolific but tasteless abundance.
  • My life has been long, relatively happy, and filled with incidents I enjoy remembering.  It is difficult to resist feeling there is some divine purpose, but easy to decide most other people’s conceptions of the same thing are ridiculous.  So I enjoy bible stories as science fiction morality tales, but I prefer modern fables of the same general type.  An apple, however, still recalls Durer and Michelangelo which provide beautiful images enriching my imagination.

Thursday

  • Like a long introductory oboe solo, ailanthus seeds deepening into burnt orange herald summer’s future demise.  Since these invasive trees are easily controlled and their pollen apparently does not cause allergies,  they are well tolerated and even beloved by city dwellers.  Some marketing genius gave them the common name “tree of heaven,” which didn’t hurt their cause.
  • Much summer remains.  Today is very hot, but who knows what may come.  We take comfort in averages, but averages are made of heat waves, cold spells, tremendous storms, long droughts, and calm times.  Those are what we actually experience, and even if the rest of the summer hews to average it may consist of strong contrasts.  So also the portents  of any change _ it will surely come, when and how are hardly certain.

Wednesday

  • Apparently in olden days a summer chore for frontier children was to go out daily with a bucket to pick the ripening wild berries.  Lovely sunlit dewy mornings, clean air, birdcall all around, a pleasant fantasy.  But any chore is work, especially daily, and although perhaps less brutal than some of the other things children back then had to do, it involves stultifying heat and humidity, vicious insects, thick brambles, and disappointment.  Any ripe fruit, like these blackberries at Coindre Hall, are also rapidly harvested by wild creatures.
  • I can imagine perhaps one pleasant morning a year doing such a thing for fun.  Then, being a child of my own age, I realize there are more interesting ways to spend my time, such as useless writing.

Tuesday

  • Rose hips can be made into a nice tea, but it would be hard to subsist on them.  “Paleo diet” fans claim once people left the tropics, they had to eat nothing but meat, although game is also hard to procure every day in extreme cold or drought.  Only the development of staple crops such as cereal grains, potatoes, and corn allowed seasonal famine in temperate zones to be (largely) overcome.  That also led to domesti
    cation with useful byproducts of eggs and milk.  Without agriculture, life with winters or monsoons is chancy and difficult; with it, at least the elite (and the culture it transmits) can usually survive.
  • The “natural” fruits and berries around here are products of long human development.  It is hard to find anything that could be used as a food source that has not been touched and “improved” for use by our species.  Unlike some, I have never yearned for a return to the healthy diets of the past.  For that matter, I am grateful for electricity, chemicals, fossil fuels, and all the other “horrors” of modern food supplies which allow me to eat my fill of anything anywhere at anytime of year.

Monday

  • Everything rushes towards maturation.  Goslings, cygnets, fish, crabs, and infinite varieties of seeds and fruits grow rapidly.  Farmers are overwhelmed with produce, which will continue a few more months until decreasing sunlight and eventual frost bring an end to this year’s production.  Nature accelerates its annual increasing slope towards deepest winter. 
  • People take a bit longer.  My wife and I sat on a dock last night watching the sun set.  It only takes three months to see almost a hundred sunsets, few of us will experience a hundred summers.  Of those hundred, many are when we are helpless children, or increasingly declining adults. According to 1960’s biology, I am genetically useless; according to Spencerian Darwinianism I am harming the species by holding back the most fit.  Human society _ especially civilization _ is supernatural in the sense that it upends almost all natural laws, including those that would have killed me off a long time ago. 

In Heat

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Sunday

  • Fat city for scavengers, wading birds, and others.  Egrets pluck abundant minnows from the shallows, cormorants dive for minutes at time seeking slightly larger prey, this seagull feasts on a fish carcass thrown overboard after filleting (which is much better than sending it to the town dump.)  The size of the head indicates it was taken in the open Sound, just a short trip past the inlet.  Amazing that such remain relatively abundant.
  • We’ve lost lobsters, dolphins, seals, and oysters from the harbor proper, although oysters may be making a comeback.  It’s hard to imagine how bountiful this area was four hundred years ago, for the natives and first colonists.  But I admit I am surprised that dolphins and seals still roam the open waters,  and that huge fish can be caught frequently from a large party boat that departs Halesite every day.  I hope that means the world is not in quite so desperate shape as I often fear. 

Saturday

  • Fiddler crabs menacing each other at muddy low tide.  So many of the smaller and stranger life forms have even odder sexual and survival patterns.  Happening all around are some form of procreation and development of new moon shells, whelks, horseshoe crabs, periwinkles, seaweed, diatoms, protozoa, bacteria, and who knows what else in the countless variety of a summer briny soup.  All that can be seen are often the tragedies _ empty oyster and clam shells picked clean by gulls, carapaces of dead horseshoe crabs.  And yet, even in these polluted and crowded shores, life is throbbing to the seasonal rhythm.
  • I know nothing of, for example, the mating habits if any of fiddler crabs, nor anything of their life cycle.  Yes, I know all that could be quickly gleaned from an internet search.  But if I cannot know everything, of what value to me is knowing such details?  I find it more important to take the time to notice that the crabs are crawling around, dashing for cover at every shadow, and filling their days incomprehensibly in the hot sun.  Sweating here beside them I am a part of the dance in a way I can never be in front of a computer screen or book, no matter what I think I am learning.

Friday

  • Beehive in a shrub.  Seems to be real bees, not wasps, hornets, or yellow-jackets.  With all the flowers around the yards, bees are welcome sights.  Industrious and important parts of any ecology, and severely threatened by pesticides, parasites, and other dangers in recent years.  When there are lots of bees, it is easy to feel that things are right with the world.
  • But, like a shepherd confronting a wolf kill, I am conflicted.  Part of me considers it a privilege to be hosting a beehive on our front yard.  But another part loudly claims “it’s our yard!”  Bees sting _ trimming, weeding, and general work in this corner will be all but impossible.  Can’t move them without destroying them.  Maybe the winter will get rid of them naturally, but if not?  Ah well, for now procrastination seems the best policy, especially since they didn’t sting me when I disturbed them by pulling out a grape vine.  

Thursday

  • Cold front moved through last night with splatter of rain and subdued thunder.  Today thermometers read the same, but air is crisp and clear, far seems near, colors sparkle.  Sweat dries immediately instead of running in rivulets and drips.  Heat is not just heat.
  • Time for cultivated species to shine.  Most roses and all crops would not survive without cultivation and care, but they are still beautiful and necessary.  Arguments rage as to what is natural and what is “secrets with which we dare not meddle,” but humans take every genetic accident they consider useful and cause it to triumph over other, better suited, species and varieties.  No real value judgements here, just pointing out logical inconsistencies. 

Wednesday

  • No cotton around here, but the phragmites are high.   A day may be hot even with constant cloud cover, the world slowly braised and wilted together.  If the sun breaks through, frantic admonitions will be issued on media for everyone to stay inside and drink approved liquids.  Adding to hysteria, alerts and warnings of smoggy air quality as if mustard gas were arriving on the Western Front.
  • (Some disconnected neurons contend the pink flowers are Joe Pye Weed, but I wouldn’t put money on it.)  When I was young, before much TV weather or air conditioning, I never remember my parents telling me that I didn’t have to mow the lawn because it was too hot (and July was always too hot in Philadelphia.)  My track coach would issue us a salt pill before sending us on a ten mile training run _ it was thought water would give us cramps.  Like all older generations, we think the next ones are less and less rugged, more unable to handle the simplest problems, and it increasingly annoys us that they seem to muddle through just fine.  

Tuesday

  • Although now is the beginning of fat time of year, when there is lots of food for everything, it is also the beginning of stress and attrition.  Voracious insects attack foliage, any long periods of missed thunderstorms and other rainfall lead to stressed leaves, curling brown on outer edges.  Accidents and other issues cut into newly born populations.  But it’s glory time for ragweed, ready to take over where anything else has failed.
  • Ragweed almost requires people, because its main requirement is that we disturb the land frequently and render it completely unnatural compared to its “native state.”  Of course, that image is somewhat silly _ ragweed evolved long before people, taking advantage no doubt of natural disasters that also upset equilibrium.  When I think of things as dichotomies _ stable or disturbed, natural or man-made, even beautiful or ugly, useful or not _ I am deeply into a pattern that is true in my own mind, and perhaps shared by a few other similar humans, but in no way objective nor in a formal sense “correct.”  In my arrogance, it is easy to forget that is always so.

Monday

  • “It’s too darn hot” goes the old song.  For much of the natural world _ birds, fish, many plants, some mammals _ sex has wrapped up for another year.  For those species, it’s all about the next generation, like ripe grasses along the roadside.  There are more animals, as ruthless nature begins the winnowing process.  Insects are probably still madly procreating, which spiders are quite happy about.
  • In spite of the Kinsey report, humans seem to manage to “sport” in all but the most extreme conditions.  Lately, many of them refuse to be winnowed.  A growing problem _ yes, that’s a pun.  Anyway, the race is on as to whether we can control the urges of our species or let them run wild until inevitable catastrophe.  Hot bright sun on this hazy morning, lush scenery and even our toys ready for water play, should provide reasons enough for us to seek to preserve our miraculous heritage.

Tidal Rave

Sunday

  • For a small harbor, Huntington has widely varied bottoms.  In addition to sand and clay deposits once used for pottery and brickmaking, there are mud flats, and rocks, and grasses and, for that matter, piers and deep water off the various bulkheads and docks.  Nobody goes into the water without some kind of footwear _ not only is the muck unpleasant but there are sharp broken shells, annoying edged rocks, and the detritus of centuries of sunken boats, industrial activity, and shoreline dumping.
  • Being scoured twice a day, the intertidal area is hardly as forbidding as you might think.  Here there are almost pristine pebbles, exposed seaweed, and a closer look would reveal periwinkles, mussels, and clams, abundant even in these polluted times.  Seagulls make a nice living, once upon a time, people did also.

Saturday

  • A careful observer can easily determine if tide is coming in or going out simply from observing the state of the sands and rivulets nearest the wave line.  Another indicator, under the right conditions, is the brown scum of bubbles caused by air pockets and dried dust floating up as the water rises.  In this case, the bubbles have detached to form little brown patches on the water. 
  • I admit that in this, as in so many other things, I am hardly a careful observer.  Sometimes I see more in my pictures of a scene later than I did at the scene itself.  When I closely examine the rocks here, the stained dinghy, the corroded chain, each seems marvelous in its own way, and would not seem out of place in a modern art gallery somewhere _ especially, I suppose, inland where folks have never seen such things.  Beauty can come in many guises.

Friday

  • Imagine an old gentleman wearing a long robe sitting in this gazeebo and then (if you had the proper temperament and training) you could create a fine Chinese brush painting of this scene.  Working it backwards, this helps you understand the models used for those lovely colored ink on silk works existing since antiquity.  A photograph is hardly better.
  • Life without accomplishment is empty.  To accomplish we must have short and long term goals, plans, tasks and obsessions, which focus us and ignore irrelevancies.  But even artificial constraints, such as the theme I use each week, can blind us to a great deal.  This scene has nothing to do with tides, and has been available each morning, and I have not seen it.  Not a fault, just another contradiction, a zen realization that reality is never truly known.

Thursday

  • The least interesting moments occur mid tide, when bleak sands are revealed and fascinating mudflats still lie hidden.  Full tide is lovely as a lake, low tide is filled with marvels revealed.   Mid tide _ well, this is the actual tidal zone, of course, within the borderlines of all that thrives here, and yet it seems stony and barren and boring. 
  • I cast my moods and judgements like stains upon my experiences, coloring it almost beyond recognition.  I expect clams and crabs and shells and a shipwreck or two _ I find broken bleached ruins.  On another day the same umber sands and sea lavender glow with the brilliance of stained glass.  Mercurial irrelevant perceptions are surely one of the perverse glories of being exactly what I am.  

Wednesday

  • Full flood tide at Gold Star Battalion Beach.  People prefer the ocean when it is low _ more beach to share, a greater water area to spread out in, and varied zones of wave intensity.  But at most Huntington beaches, low tide is shunned _ too much flotsam, jetsam, and organic detritus floating in the reduced volume.  Children are sternly warned not to get heads wet, any mishap induces moments of panic.  E. Coli is treated as if it were bubonic plague.
  • Every day many fatal car accidents occur, but we ignore them.  Our ancestors coped with high childhood mortality, women dying frequently in childbirth, death from starvation or wild animals or exposure or incurable contagious diseases always threatening.  Yet today what we most fear are sore throats, upset stomachs, minor diarrhea, or earaches, maybe an infected scratch.  We’ve lost perspective.  I suppose we could learn to exist with such horrors once again, as the unfortunate refugees in the Mideast and elsewhere are doing at this very moment, but I hope it never happens.  Parents worrying about the possibility of earaches is a wonderful sign of civilization working. 

Tuesday

  • Coastal fishing, marine navigation, recreation, and infrastructure depend on tides _ not only high or low, but incoming or ebbing _ which are maddeningly exact.  Almost every six hours the state flips, almost every seven days a given hour will have the opposite tide, a few miles of shoreline severely impact timing, and of course the ocean is _ almost _ the opposite of the Sound.  And all the activities and tide levels themselves are also affected by temperature, local and distant weather, alignment of sun and moon, unpredictable waves, time of day, and season.  For anyone not a professional dealing with it daily, it might as well be completely random.
  • Humans tend to grumble.  Rain on weekends, cold weather on summer vacation, low tide when we want high.  Only those privileged to live along a tidal shoreline for a while can understand how profoundly different it is from a river or lake.  I consider the harbor tides one of the finest attractions of living where I do, even when they upset my plans.

Monday

  • Earth’s diameter is just about 8000 miles; the biozone from the top of breathable air to bottom of ocean depths is barely 8,  and for all practical purposes even smaller than that.  Comparisons of density are even worse, since life exists only around the lightest components.  The surface area is a vast 200 million square miles, but of course three quarters of that is water.  The rest is mountains, desert, fields, ice, and forest, with a few lakes thrown in.  The intertidal zone may be locally pervasive, but represents only a thin tiny ribbon along salt water coasts.  In that inconsequentially tiny environment exist immensely rich and diverse ecologies.
  • I think about that when strolling the shoreline.  I too am inconsequential compared to everything, but inhabit what feels like a tremendously rich personal universe.  Life, they say, began in the oceans and had to get through this barrier to start inhabiting the land.  I am more of the fiddler crab type, never venturing into the depths on one side, nor testing the dryness on the other.  Waving a claw at neighbors and running from shadows constitutes quite enough excitement for me. 

Nifty Shades of Green

Sunday

  • This green world is excessively noisy on Saturday mornings.  The din of chain saws, shrub trimmers, lawn mowers, and leaf blowers, intertwined with shouts of crews and rumblings of giant trucks carrying gear, begins at dawn and scarcely lets up until dusk, when the mosquitoes reclaim their territory.  Perhaps that is why there is no one ever sitting in the Adirondack chairs or on porches wrapped around immense houses.  More likely, people who can afford property around here lead busy busy lives with no time to just hang out and enjoy the fruits of their labors.
  • I think the saying “youth is wasted on the young” could be extended to “wealth is wasted on the wealthy.”  A lifetime lived in sloth is wretched indeed.  But a lifetime without long moments of appreciation is a shadow of what we should be.

Saturday

  • It was traditionally hard to paint a convincing mid-range picture of trees, although Ruisdael and Hobbema did so with limited palette.  Distant woods, as here, could be blurred and blued and blotted in with shadows,  close-up foliage could be treated carefully as still life, but capturing the actual experience of trees in-between required the out-of-the-box theories of the Impressionists.  They were able to replace the effect of constant motion and color changes of rustling leaves with dabs of exaggerated complementary colors.
  • I find Pissarro the master for such landscapes.  His canvases scarcely match photographs of the same subjects, but you feel as if you have actually been there looking around.  I have frequently walked out of a museum after hours with the Impressionists to discover the world itself sparkling in ways I never imagined.  It’s strange to realize that plain old dull greens can be treated so garishly and suddenly burst into realistic scenery through the magic of our eyes and brain.    

Friday

  • A trumpet vine hovers over the tidal inlet at West Neck Beach.  Most animals react to the unusual in their environment because that represents either danger or opportunity.  Something orange where all is green and blue, something moving where all is still, or still where all is in motion.  Humans encourage this perhaps to excess, risking overload of the senses.
  • I am always surprised that even as nearsighted as I am, any strange movement attracts my attention.  Naturally, when trying to set up a picture, I am conscious of what might add interest to the landscape.  The obverse of this is how quickly we apply filters and can ignore and dismiss anything that we have already evaluated, which is why I am frequently oblivious to what I have just seen or heard.

Thursday

  • Salt marsh stretches away at high tide in Lloyd Harbor, a haven for egrets and ospreys and lesser birds, fish, crustaceans, insects, grasses, and of course uncountable bacteria, protozoa and other lesser denizens of any open water.  All seems in perfect harmony, a quiet lagoon where everything lives deeply specialized in its own niche.  Moralists of various persuasions offer quaint proverbs and tales trying to show how cooperation, or struggle, or adaptation, or resistance are the cardinal rules of the natural world which society should adopt.  From the time of the earliest fables, however, people have recognized those lessons as entertaining, but false and often irrelevant.
  • We know, as our ancestors did, as every human has ever known, that we are not the same as everything else.  Unique among the complex life forms on the planet, each of us is an expert in being unspecialized and flexible.  The true tale is that if necessary, we could figuratively take the place of anything in the landscape.  You and I might not like it, but we could, and often do, as when we settle into an awful job.  Gloriously alone, you and I are also miraculously able to know what we like, what we don’t, and what might make our experience better.

Wednesday

  • Matisse’ famous painting Luxe Calme et Volupte is named after Baudelaire’s poem “There, all is beauty/ luxury, calm, and voluptuousness.”  Huntington is south of Saint-Tropez, more on the latitude of Naples, but Matisse might have recognized the humid light, if not the verdant overwhelming vegetation.  Certainly William Merritt Chase and his circle demonstrated that impressionism works on Long Island, although nobody would ever describe the LIE _ even during a dead-stop traffic jam _ as calm.
  • I’ve always enjoyed fantasizing about people such as Matisse painting on this hill, or Caesar marching his troops along the shoreline, or some Gibbons of the future sadly musing on the ruins of underwater Huntington.  When technicians speak of artificial intelligence do they assume that means a capacity to experience voluptuousness, or to daydream impossibilities?  We are more than our experiences or logic,  more than pattern matching machines, more than dots on some statistical chart.  You and I are never merely what we accomplish, never simply defined by how others judge us.  I can also
    be, on good days, “luxe calme et volupte.”

Tuesday

  • July weather has become classic summer _ hot, humid, storms possible anytime.  That seems completely normal and unremarkable _ what is usually remembered are extreme events of temperature, precipitation, or wind.  But normal is never guaranteed _ people may look back and sigh “recall that last glorious July of 2015, before the world went mad.” 
  • We hardly ever evaluate what we live through properly _ minor events like an assassination can trigger a world war, a normal business panic can become a decade-long depression, a temporary lack of rain can dry into an epic drought.  Death, taxes, gravity, the sun, yes we can probably count on those, but everything else remains unknowable.  That is why I try to grab happiness as it comes by.  Sometimes that is hard or impossible, but when happiness is available even for moments, I should cherish that impermanent and never certain treasure.

Monday

  • A wily old woodsman could determine a calendar date almost as well as someone with access to a cell phone.  A glance at the crowns of trees, for example, narrows the possible season considerably.  Closer examination of leaves would yield a pretty good guess simply with their state and color.  Tender young growth in the spring is mostly pale and yellowish, tinged with streaks of red, always delicate and clear-cut, often unfurling.  As the summer progresses, every hue darkens as if it becomes suntanned, insect infestation creates holes and ragged gaps, weather and drought turn whole branches brown, and nothing seems to grow at all.  Even without recourse to the state of flowers _ which are of course a dead giveaway for anyone _ trees and shrubs tell a remarkably complete story.
  • What always surprises me is not that such variety of shades of green exist, for I see them easily when I try, but that I so often ignore them totally.  Even when trying to communicate exactly what I perceive, I remain at a loss.  Unless you work for a paint company coming up with luscious descriptions of your wares, or are a struggling writer trying for variety in prose, there is never much reason to go beyond “green.”  We have synonyms and modifiers, but I hardly ever use them in daily speech.  Just another of the grand, unnoticed, fractal wonders of my existence.

Flags & Firecrackers

Sunday

  • Could be a historic old colonial home on the harbor _ well, not really, but it looks the part, and it is patriotically decked out.  What anyone considers history is always relative anyway.  In some places it is anything over fifty years old, in others a thousand.  At the rate of change in most of the world, something saved from last month or last year should get a historic marker and designation.  Modern civilization is perhaps too adapted to novelty.
  • It’s been a hard acceptance that I myself have slid into historic status.  What I remember is as long gone for younger generations as the roads of Rome or the gardens of Babylon.  Was it really like that, they ask amazed, as I once did to my grandparents.  Sometimes that realization is sad, sometimes I’m just grateful I survived through it all, sometimes it seems irrelevant, sometimes it seems the most important element of my life.  One thing constant through it all, and I hope it remains so for a long time, has been fireworks and picnics on the Fourth of July.

Saturday

  • Little flags pop up like mushrooms now.  Maybe it’s a universal human trait. Switch the language on the sign, substitute the national colors of your choice, and this could be anywhere in Europe in the last two centuries.  The whole phenomenon is endearing until it suddenly turns virulent.  A difficult balance.
  • Difficult balance is what life is all about.  Tension between overpopulation and extinction, tension between homeostatic systems like blood pressure and temperature, tension between social freedom and security.  Irresolvable contradictions somehow leading to temporary dynamic situations that manage to continue on.  At this time and place, from my viewpoint, little flags are terrific decoration and symbolic of a mostly good outlook on life.   

Friday

  • Of course, just because the indigenous flowers are less on display does not prevent cultivated varieties from their own ostentatious celebration.  These lilies are in full glory right now, as are many exotic species which most people have added to tiny microenvironments around their house.  It’s amazing how people like to keep their grounds beautiful, even in a culture that rarely prizes beauty in and of itself.  Easier and more rewarding to simply accept that people like to decorate their homes than to worry about the evolutionary or cosmic reasons why that should be so.
  • In some minds, this flower bed would be far better stripped and pulled back into climax forest.  I can’t help but think of those as Luddites,  futilely railing against change.  I would not like these flowers replaced by gloom, ferns, and mosquitoes _ there’s quite enough of that in the Adirondacks and Catskills.  I admire the intense joy emitted by these blooms and others like them, the feeling that others do care greatly about living things, the realization that even during the most rational of barren economic ideologies we engage in pure pointless showmanship because we enjoy it. 

Thursday

  • As this drying dock weed illustrates, grand fireworks of native flowers are pretty much over.  Trees have bloomed, meadows are no long swathed in color.  There will be plenty of isolated flowers and fruits from here on, but everything is racing to grow as quickly as possible.  The world is engulfed in green, except where cultivated in gardens.  Insects have their own rhythms, last night for the first time numerous lightning bugs arose spontaneously from the lawn as twilight deepened.
  • I’ve been privileged over the last few years to be fully engaged in local seasons.  Nature is completely enchanting and fulfilling when we can pay enough attention to it.  Fortunately, I can still be astonished at the perfection of a bee visiting a purple clover, or a dragonfly flitting over a pond, elements which now come into their own until fall once again dictates major change.

Wednesday

  • Thermometer in the eighties,  fine firm wind, brilliant sky, schools empty, but only a few sails, one big, one small.  In fact, the harbor this late morning is surprisingly empty on the waters, although the sand has quite a crowd.  No matter, a fine, colorful and quiet activity out there, to celebrate being alive and aware.
  • Perhaps everyone else is off worrying about far-away Greece or China,  or equally distant Christmas sales.  More likely, they have decided to wait for next week to declare summer holiday.  In the meantime, a wee bit desperate, I seize on anything I might fit into my definitions, a modern Humpty-Dumpty.   Stretching the definition of flag, perhaps, but colored cloth is colored cloth.  Of course, by that token bathing suits and other apparel should count as well.  

Tuesday

  • Original Impressionists loved to show flags in their landscapes, seascapes, and townscapes.  It was an opportunity to add dashes of pure vibrant colors to their otherwise sparkling but pastel palette.  France was apparently chock full of flag displays at the end of the nineteenth century.  Every summer, Huntington harbor also brightens up with bits of cloth flying everywhere.
  • Sometimes a theme doesn’t work out well.  For some reason, the usual pennants festooning the boats remain in storage this year _ for that matter I’ve only seen one or two sailboats.  Since I can’t very well photograph the firecrackers sounding each evening, and my camera will not capture fireflies or fireworks, finding something to say may tax my inventive powers.  On the other hand, my mouth often outpaces my brain, so all may be well.

Monday

  • Continuing alliteration:  _ first Fourth festivals fizzle.  Watching California and the West in drought, living where the rain falls frequently and plentifully from the sky seems a pretty good deal.  It certainly hasn’t hampered the efforts of these young folks fishing.
  • I welcome clouds, rain, mist, snow, fog as magical costumes on the normally clear and bright landscape.  Perhaps that is just a rationalization, an acceptance of the inevitable, but I honestly like such variation.  Even in this season, when every day is a fabulous holiday different from the one before in almost every way, I find special details such as the drops of rain hanging on the day lilies profoundly entertaining.  I also feel sorry for those who do not have the time, resources, inclination, or wisdom to do so.

From Mountains to Shore

Sunday

  • Pine trees on the beach were severely damaged by the horrific winter, and at least one is dead.  Those that remain are putting out new needles and cones.  Evergreens are easily overlooked amidst the spectacular sparkle and pop of the deciduous trees, shrubs, and flowers.  Green as always, chugging along, unnoticed, quietly taking their place in the background scenery.  As complex a miracle of nature as anything else, the end result of as long a tale of survival and struggle and adaptation as any sunbather down here.
  • Chinese and Japanese painters loved painting pines, sometimes just for the joy of evocation, sometimes as moral lesson, often enduring snow or wind or rain.  I have sometimes seen myself as more of a lonely pine tree just getting through life adequately than as one of the more spectacular vegetative specimens.  There are no “pine lovers shows,” no “best pine in its class” awards.  But I do my job, I try to stay green, and I endure as well as I can.  There is beauty in that approach to life as well, at least so I tell myself.

Saturday

  • Some smaller berries and fruits and many seeds are now in the midst of one of the basic species survival strategies, what  Confederate General Forrest called “fustest with the mostest.”  By making many edibles available early, potential offspring have a chance to be eaten and scattered with excellent chances of staking out the best ground before anything else.  Not coincidentally, many of these are in brilliant colors and attractive shapes.
  • All nature becomes an extravagant cornucopia now.  Yesterday I passed a linden tree that was humming loudly _ turned out to be countless thousands of bees attracted by the strong sweet perfume from the blossoms.  Each day I take ten or so pictures, and there are way too many to use.  Each one different, unique to this exact time of year, illustrating some unusual perspective.  A wonderful time to be aware of nature.

Friday

  • In the Northeast, untended ground immediately reverts to scrub and woodland.  Unfortunately, interesting forest ecologies can take centuries to develop.  Meadows, on the other hand, provide an immediate paradise for an astonishing variety of plants, insects, birds, small mammals and their predators.  They are also human-friendly, providing open views brushed by cooling breezes which keep the mosquitoes and other pests at bay.  However, maintaining a meadow takes time and money.
  • Caumsett State Park provides expanses of meadows in all their mature glory.  Migrating birds find respite, as does anyone overwhelmed by the crowds, traffic and noise only minutes away.  I often find more solitude here than I could in the wilder areas to our north.

Thursday

  • At first glance after a trip to the mountains Huntington Harbor seems an example of humans crowding out nature.  Scenes that only a Manhattan-dweller could consider natural _ boats and houses and roads and cars and people without end, square mile after square mile.  And yet _ the initial impressions are not of houses, but of forested shores and reedy wetlands in the foreground.
  • There are an awful lot of trees right here _ as there even are in Brooklyn.  Moreover, there is more diversity of trees, shrubs, flowers, and landscapes than in the vast but somewhat monotonous vegetative cover upstate.  What I continually forget is how complicated the world really is, how contradictory its various tensions (for example between civilization and wilderness), how impossible it is to have one true conception of its immensity.    Traveling may broaden the mind, but it also deepens understanding.

Wednesday

  • At twilight, mountains and lake seem deserted.  Air feels pure, water crystal, only sounds of natural wind and wave.  But, of course, this air and the rainfall it produces are tinged with residual pollution of an entire continent to the west and the industrial machine of China across the vast Pacific.   These forests were logged once, and at least along the shore are heavily developed with vacation homes, hardly virgin.  Isolation is not quite an illusion, but the planet remains interconnected even here.
  • Our generations hold the future in balance.  I am perhaps less active than I should be, but I am not convinced that frantic activity, even in a good cause, is the answer.  I truly believe Thoreau; I honestly feel we must learn to be content to save ourselves and the Earth.  Not to be poor savages, of course, but to learn when better and more are wrong, when it is time to be satiated and say “enough.”   The paradox is that to live such a life as an example is the only effective way to prove the point, but to live such a life is by definition to have almost no external impact.

Tuesday

  • People live in these mountains, although in relatively small clusters along highways threaded through the Adirondack wilderness.  Lake George village is larger than most _ obviously because of its lakeshore assets.  The “last of the Mohicans” was fighting here in the French and Indian War a century after the founding of Huntington.  Fort William Henry with its massive timberworks followed a year later, but has never since been important except as a tourist attraction.  Before air conditioning, a trip to the mountains in the summer was something wealthy people could do for a week or a month when they grew tired of the ocean, even building a hotel here on the peak reached by cable railway.
  • What I find here is the past, hardly prettied up.  Farmers settled the bottomlands but the winters and rocks defeated them, loggers tore down the remaining virgin forest and moved on.  Scars and signs of ancient settlement are thick in the dense second-growth forest, now a respectable hundred years old or so.  Towns continue to fall into decay, abandoned buildings aging into picturesque ruins, in spite of attempts at revitalization.  And, in our own family, we spent some summers up here in the eighties when our children were small.  Since that time, seemingly everything away from the interstates has stayed in suspended animation.

Monday

  • No, this is not Huntington.  A long drive upstate is refreshing in a way that a plane ride is not _ one begins to understand the immensity of distance.  Our ancestors and native Americans appreciated the vastness of the continent far more than we do.
  • I try to limit myself locally, and steep wisdom from long contemplation of small and usual things.  But as with any concentration, I tend to see the reality of the entire world though its sharp specialized lens.  It is refreshing to be forced to recognize that my microcosm is only a microcosm.  More than enough for me, infinitesimal compared to the whole.

Solar Midlife Bash

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Sunday

  • Field bindweed has lovely and abundant blooms.  It grows profusely anywhere _ especially gardens.  It can overrun cultivated spaces and plants, choking them out, as kudzu is reported to do in the south.  Pretty much like civilization itself.
  • No matter how much I patrol and pull, bindweed never goes away.  I guess it gets delivered by birds.  It’s like a miniature version of Jack’s beanstalk _ jumping up from nothing to feet long overnight.  Why this, ragweed, and kudzu have not taken over the entire world is a mystery _ but you get more understanding of farmer’s use of herbicides when fighting this more intimate battle.


Saturday

  • Just barely possible to make out light green berries ripening on this cedar tree _ too high up to get a close shot.  Most of the trees are setting fruit by now, using all the extra energy available into trying to start a new generation.   Trees seem to be the most patient of Earth’s inhabitants, but they have to rush along during solstice like everything else.
  • No outside stone alters around here _ at least none that I know of _ and I doubt if any of the neighbors are getting up at five or so in the morning to catch a glimpse of a rising sun.  They’d be disappointed today in any case, because the clouds are thick.  But the exact moment of the sun’s northern apogee is far less important than the fact that it is occurring, and we will be hurtling back again towards the long darkness in another six months.

Friday

  • Cascading flowers bursting like a fireworks finale.  Sun beams benevolently, as it has steadily for billions of years.  Hard to believe this beautiful four-o-clock is a weed.  Harder to believe that it and humans are closely related.  Both species the end products of eons of adaptation, survival, and change.  Closer examination of cell structure and energy cycles yield even more wonders than the external appearance of this marvelous bloom.
  • In my high school, not all that long ago in years but a medieval era in biological knowledge, genetic mapping was in its infancy.   It was even possible to believe in ancient multiple spontaneous generations of life, at least of single-celled organisms.  Today, a miraculously tight web of tensions, patterns, and chromosomal control binds even plants and animals into a single family, with far less differentiation at the lowest and most important levels of cell division and organization than we should reasonably expect.  Life on Earth may or may not be unique in the universe, but there is no remaining doubt that on this planet everything alive is a close cousin, all tied to that sun which for all intents and purposes has remained eternally unchanged, birthday after birthday. 

Thursday

  • Pale blue chicory is a reliable indicator that summer has arrived to stay.  It adjusts to the variations in seasons, and when the blooms finally appear not only is frost gone, but also most chilled evenings and mornings.  The scraggly stems and leaves win no prizes, and it is sometimes hard to understand how a structure so skimpy can support flowers so beautiful.  Blue is a welcome color in a landscape filled with yellow, red, and green.
  • I always had a strong affinity for chicory, a hardy individualistic plant that thrives on the most unpromising soil.  It never grows in massive stands like ragweed, chokes out no other plants, makes do magnificently with what is available.  When an area becomes too fertile and crowded, it moves on.  I think that if I were a plant, I might be like that.

Wednesday

  • For those with fortunate lives, the everyday world seems intensely beautiful.  Nobody can deny pain, worry, fear, and helpless anger.  Loveliness is not a panacea for all cares of the human condition but it can be medicinal.  Ignoring such simple joy to do “more important things” eventually shrivels the soul.
  • I have fallen much into slothful ways as I accept aging.  Throughout my life I tried to appreciate my environment even in the midst of the necessary rush of work and family.  Now there is more time for contemplation, and acceptance that a view like this could hardly be improved. 

Tuesday

  • Clouds, mist, fog, rain, snow _ all aspects of th
    e same phenomenon _ seem to be antagonists of a beautiful day.  They are as much creations of the sun as golden beams on a beach.  Identical viewpoints during such varied conditions may hardly seem related.  An artist could emphasize the beauty in each, maybe increase our appreciation.
  • I once considered art a capture of the extraordinary, but I now realize that its main value is in helping me experience the ordinary.  When meditation quiets my inner voice,  what remains is susceptible to re-enchantment with the world as it exists, not as I imagine it to be.  When art captures my soul, it opens me to what a true miracle a raindrop represents.

Monday

  • As e.e. cummings happily announced, each day is the sun’s birthday.  In the north temperate zone, an environment shared by ancient Druids and current Huntington residents, the annual solar birthday is also crucial.  At summer solstice the mighty golden orb is renewing all life where once winter had triggered dormancy awaiting the hopeful return of the lifegiver.  In that respect, this is a midlife party, when one is full of directed energy and authority, not yet tinged with possible diminishment,  a time for cheering and celebration and belief that the status quo  can continue nearly forever.
  • For many years, I adhered to our technical schedules of school and business _ relative calm in the summer, dreams and plans in the fall,  heads down work in winter, and feverish reevaluation and attempts to complete tasks in the spring _ almost the opposite of the cycle of our farming ancestors, but perhaps more in tune with that of even more ancient hunter-gatherers.

As a nature bonus today, I include an (amateurish) quick shot of an osprey nest newly constructed on a boat in the harbor, and also a link to whales sighted around here memorial day ( http://patch.com/new-york/huntington/beluga-whales-spend-memorial-day-huntington-harbor-0) .  Whether these are oddities or harbingers has yet to be determined.

Primed!

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  • Low growing small yellow wildflowers spring up in an almost unused patch of nasty dirt, on which more cultivated plants would wither and die.  On the other hand, these are never found invading gardens and lawns.  There must be all kinds of useful lessons in that, but they have all been twice-told, and in any case are always less true than complex reality.  Modern minds wish there to be clear rules and logical reasons,   but the cruel fact is that often the universe is ruled by luck and happenstance as much as by grand organizing forces.  That is especially true for life, in all its manifestations.
  • My views have evolved to believe that importance is in the details.  It is the particulars of this or that plant _ not the species but the individual plant _ that meaning comes into play.  That is true of all life, and all people, and even my daily thoughts and actions.  Our tendency is to think grand symphonies, while forgetting the individual notes of which they are composed.  Tiny forgotten and overlooked patches of beauty like this should be a reminder to consider elements, tensions, and contradictions just as much as selected items that confirm our desire for order.

Saturday

  • Like shoppers in a mall, geese more or less aimlessly form into impromptu lines and paddle hither and yon.  With all the tender new growth everywhere, it must be a fine time to be an avian vegetarian.  Nature in full bounty, plenty for everyone, no worries.
  • Geese and squirrels comfort me, simply because it is fun to see such placid and playful creatures somehow surviving in the middle of everything, bringing a bit of wilderness to city and suburb.  Although sometimes annoying, neither of the species approaches the difficulty I’ve had with raccoons, rabbits, or deer, for example, or that some are encountering now with coyotes, foxes, and bears.  They are a constant reminder that we still share the planet, and should strive to keep it so. 

Friday

  • Seatow looks like a child’s storybook caricature of a brave little tugboat.   Its primary duty is to retrieve boats _ often sailboats _ whose motors have failed.  Like most leisure activities, using the wind for motive power is fun as long as you don’t have to get anywhere in particular in a hurry.  Used to be stranded mariners would have to wave, holler, shoot off flares, or hoist appropriate flags to hail a rescue.  Now getting help is as easy as ordering a pizza.
  • When we first moved here, everyone said I would soon be bitten by the “boat bug,” but so far I have proved immune.  I don’t mind a few hours every year or so on a big ship like a ferry.  Generally, I regard nautical trips much as I do golf _ “a good walk wasted” _ without even having “a good walk.”

Thursday

  • On certain calm days, an unsuspecting passer-by may be awakened from reverie by an odor.  The dense sweet perfume of honeysuckle thickly clustering on hedges and fences is unmistakable.  It joins other subtle background odors from vegetation and salt tang of the tides.  Not all scents are pleasant _ car exhaust,  exposed mud flats, decaying fish die-offs, or bags of clams inexplicably set by the side of the road during high heat.  All form part of the unconscious fabric of existence to certify that we are awake and not dreaming.
  • My sense of smell is woefully worse than that of my wife; I taste less accordingly.  But even I was brought up short by this pleasant cloud emanating from otherwise subtle flowers.  Along the breezy harbor, such olfactory intensity is rare, since any concentrations are usually rapidly dispersed by a strong clean wind fresh off the sound.  I strive to remember that not all of what I experience is sight and sound, not all of who I am is logic and words.

Wednesday

  • Wonderful new blooms appear each day.  This catalpa blossom, by itself, would probably win prizes at some winter shows.  But it arrives in clusters, often high up, and kind of disappears into a general impression of a big tree with white flowers.  Only by pausing and looking intently is full beauty revealed.
  • Of necessity, I used to rush around as much as anyone else.  Ours is a culture which rewards activity and I spent much of my life half-blinded watching goals.  I do not regard that as a waste, just a different period, and I am now fortunate to be able to spend more time in appreciation.  I admit that my body and hormones are also less likely to rebel during meditation (or even demand it), possibly to the good, but good or bad a fact to which I must adapt.

Tuesday

  • Most folks drive along this road around forty miles an hour, concerned primarily with not hitting other people, going off the rails, or running into parked cars.  Some even slow down a bit to take in the view.  Even pedestrians are often so wrapped up in inner clamor that they merely scan the horizon, enjoy vessels bobbing on the waves, once in a while take a picture of some striking panorama.  But few take any moments to study the infinite small miracles of which this is all composed.  Such as this lovely nightshade plant, with its intricate flowers of purple and gold ready to start becoming brilliant red berries.  Or the two beetles going at it desperately on a leaf, unaware of the prying camera.
  • I try to be aware of small details, but of course that is impossible and overwhelming and, in the end, just as futile as ignoring them altogether.  I want to gaze on the panoramas too.  And I have my own tumultuous inner thoughts _ such as thinking about what I may write here _ threatening always to drown out my immediate perceptions.  Life and consciousness are complicated and marvelous and only when I start taking any of it for granted am I truly becoming lost. 

Monday

  • The rose family is blooming profusely, boats float densely, people anxiously enjoy a perfect day here or there.  Each season in the Northeast year by year is a little different, some with more or less rain, more or less cold, more or less cloud cover.  This one has been pretty cool and quite dry.  But more and more, everything is ready and primed for use as solstice and the Fourth of July loom.  Soon vacations will explode, beaches will be packed, sails will unfurl, schools will empty, businesses will slip into semi-dormancy.  Even in a 24×7 world, old customs die hard.
  • I’m as impatient as the next guy.  Where are the hot days, when will the water warm up?  I try to be in tune with the seasons, but seasons have their own varying rhythm and I rush ahead.  A cold damp day now, for example, would have been a welcome blast of heat back in February.  But my expectations are already slipping into late July, while the meteorology acts like early May.